TFG1MIKE 365 – 2019 Day 22!!
^From a few years ago, I’ve been 30% off my entire life!
Dealing with Depression!!
Hello all and welcome back to TFG1Mike 365! It’s Day 22 of 2023!!! New Year brings new hopes and dreams to all of us I think. In case you haven’t read any of my blogs before, you can find all the blogs over at FROM THE DESK OF TFG1Mike! Normally my goal with this series is to wake up each new day, and find something on the internet, or in real life to write about. Today is all about the daily dealings with depression! Well it’s been 4 years since I talked about this on Day 6 of 2019! You can read my first write up on Depression HERE! 4 Years later, a lot has and has not changed!
In that entry from Day 6 of 2019, I talked about my Mom… who died in 2015. And now in 2023, there has been so much that has happened since that write up in 2019. At the time in 2019 when I wrote that entry Karen and I were a happily married couple, we were homeowners, and more. Little did we know that by September of that year we would be forced into situations that were out of our control and more. However we stayed together, and were still so much in love. In November of 2021 she unexpectedly died. So my life essentially ended there, even though I needed to “press on”. I had no time to grieve, because I had to throw myself into finding a new place to live. Luckily by June of 2022 I found that place.
However even though I’m stable with my living situation, I don’t feel like I’m really living life anymore. And there have been people who gently try to remind me that: “You had a life before Karen.” I know these people who are friends are trying to help, but that’s not helping, because when Karen and I met my entire life changed! Yes I was still a geek and all that, but I found the person I wanted to live for, the person I wanted to love forever, and even though she is gone now, I’ll always love her. So with being by myself again, I feel as if I’m just surviving through life. And when I say that I mean the times when I’m not podcasting or hanging out with local friends…. Those times when I’m alone with my thoughts and feelings, for the one that is gone…. The whole thing can just be overwhelming!
Depression is a real thing, don’t let anyone tell you it isn’t. I do try my best to make the best of each day in life. As tomorrow isn’t promised to anyone. Unless my chronic back pain acts up, when I first get up in the morning I generally have a very positive outlook on each day that I’m here in this world. I’m not sure if the depression will ever go away, but here’s to the day that it does!
Has depression ever affected you? If so how did you deal with it? Let me know in the comments below!
Join me tomorrow morning January 23, 2023 as I’ll be writing about something.